SPIRITUAL BEGINNINGS ARE SO EXCITING!
Before you entered the path toward opening your mind, you had a blind spot your whole life, blind to clearer understanding and self awareness. When you begin your search into clarity, spirituality, wisdom, self-awareness, you experience new understandings that feel special, they taste like chocolate (or any special treat)! They are exciting, freeing, surprising, seductive. They are so powerful they can knock you off your feet, take your breath away.
Clearing your mind follows a similar pattern as any new, exciting undertaking. When you learn any new skill, in the beginning there are many ‘aha’ moments, breakthroughs small and large that are thrilling, stimulating and unusual to you. You bask in the learning, you want to talk about it with like-minded people, you want to introduce others to what you’re just now finding out, because it is so cool, seductive, wonderful, life-changing. New relationships engender these feelings too, as does travel to new and exotic places, new jobs, new hobbies, new ways of thinking, new lifestyles.
This is almost necessary; you could say it’s your inner system’s way of making you feel so enticed, so interested, so excited and desirous of more, that these succulent breakthroughs make you want to keep going, and keep going deeper, keep persevering. The breakthroughs can be so powerful, you just want more!
It’s all so new and wondrous that you naturally want to share this feeling around, want to tell how wonderful it is, how it’s changing your life and improving your mind. It’s almost stinky, ha ha, watching people go through this stage, and remembering how I was during this stage also. Wanting to find other like-minded practitioners, wanting to write all about it, wanting to read every book you can find about it, especially wanting to talk about it to others who hadn’t yet started any formal effort into expanding, clearing their minds. You want to get them started, too! You’re as excited about this new thing as you have been about anything else exciting that’s happened in your life!
At this stage, you’re not yet seeing clearly; even if these breakthroughs you’re having are about clarity, you’re still not seeing clearly. Rather, your experience is all about the excitement, the newness, the seduction and addiction of these newfound wonderful feelings and experiences. You’re so caught up in your own new experiences, you’re almost delusional in gushing it out to anyone and everyone, thinking the power and wonder of your experience must surely impress, interest, excite others into wanting it for themselves! How could they not?!
BREAKTHROUGHS CANNOT GO ON FOREVER
But as the months and years go by, and we become more adept, mature along this path of inner growth, the benefits and breakthroughs evolve past being wondrous happenings… because as your mind advances, it is no longer made up of the dynamics needed for a ‘breakthrough’. Being constantly open, having a harmonious clarity, finding your own groundedness, entering all new events with clear mind and being free of filters and judgement… when you achieve these, then you have ‘loosened’ or ‘dissolved’ the hard parts of your mind that used to be closed; so, how could there be ‘breakthroughs’?
Breakthroughs happen when something hard, closed, is loosened and broken through; your old mind was hard and closed, so it was subject to these wonderfully freeing breakthroughs. But when your mind evolves into being more open and less rigid… it allows ideas to pass through much more easily, and the feeling of ‘breakthrough’ is lessened. When you have a highly advanced mind, there is no longer any feeling of breakthrough… because there is no closed, hardened thing to break through anymore!
You lose the highs, those intoxicating high feelings brought on by spiritual breakthroughs. That feeling of newness, of there being breakthroughs, wears off. The same kinds of things, or even more exciting things happen, and they no longer stimulate you the way they did in the beginning, when your thoughts and feelings were so impacted by the new and unusual. Your thoughts and feelings have become open and clear, not closed and rigid… so what substance is there to be impacted against?
THE LOSS OF BREAKTHROUGH HIGHS AND LOWS
Some people become bored at this stage, maybe even jaded and disappointed. Or, worse, they keep trying to recreate that old excitement… but they can never quite scratch that itch again, and the ‘chase’ for it may become a new kind of addiction. It’s quite a paradox that in our early stages of clearing our minds and opening to deeper self-awareness, we become so caught up in the intoxication of the exciting new feelings and breakthroughs that it blinds us and adds yet another hurdle to finding true clarity.
Some people gently let go of that feeling and are satisfied with the pleasant memory, figuring they’ve lost the ability for that wonderful newness feeling. But if you keep evolving, you arrive at an understanding: you understand the evolution, you accept it, you become nourished by it in a more steady, though less exciting, way. The ‘highs’ become less important, you’ll even grow to actually find them annoying and interfering with your efforts to strengthen your groundedness and equilibrium.
THIS SHOWS TRUE ADVANCEMENT
Your early steps on the ‘mind path’ can be called ‘spiritual kindergarten’; your mind was still mostly closed and unseeing; when you are closed in any way, blind to things, then you have boundaries in your mind and feelings, and anything that breaks through those closed boundaries, that sphere, is a little shock, a little earthquake that cracks apart your old understanding, and as such the new reveal can seem like a wondrous, powerful thing. But when you evolve into an open mind, each moment of each day, you dissolve the boundaries; there’s nothing closed about you that can be shocked open. So you lose the revelatory feeling of breakthroughs, accomplishments, you lose those highs, lose those initial magical addictive feelings of newness.
And this is very advanced. It is a tremendous sign of your evolution. It is only your old, unclear thoughts and personality that might still nudge you to look for the euphoria, those wonderful initial feelings of power and unusual clarity during the beginnings of your new path. Now, leaving those desires for highs behind, you are open all the time. Balanced all the time. There are no high spikes and low doldrums to your thoughts and feelings, and with those gone, all that is left is… equilibrium. Your equilibrium is always in balance, because you have gone beyond the teeter-totter cycle of being low and high and low and high.
There are no longer occasional highs of euphoric breakthroughs; that is for the kindergarten and lower-school stages of clearing your mind. When you become adept with being open and clear, when you attain adulthood along this path, the seductive, addictive candy of ‘new breakthroughs’ disappears, and then the daily nourishment of equilibrium begins to taste so good!
The person who felt low, closed, and needing the highs to keep motivating them, has dissolved. You have evolved past those infant steps of your spirituality and self awareness. Within you has sprouted a person of such immense openness, clarity, and strength, that breakthroughs and highs cease to mean anything; there’s no boundary to break through, there’s no down-ness to rise above.
A NEW SUCCULENCE
You no longer have the excited feelings of wanting to share it, talk about it. Whether you share it or not, whether others understand it or not, are no longer motivations for you. Do you feel a strong need to tell people about your fingernails, your teeth, your kidneys? Like those, the clarity and equilibrium you arrive at have become simply a part of you, they have become natural and organic parts of who you now are.
You are no longer chasing the spiritual highs, no longer bored by the middles, no longer dreading and avoiding the lows. All those highs and lows along your life were so exhausting! Equilibrium, balance become so beautiful, so flowing, so fresh, so freeing.
Clarity and equilibrium are the evolved you. You have become a new ‘normal’, and this normal is open, clear, self-aware, in equilibrim and balance. What used to be exciting treats have become the daily, refreshing balance. That is a mature, evolved, wonderful part of becoming clear, once you understand it and cease trying for those old spiritual highs.
BALANCED MIND IS ADVANCED MIND
